On Today’s Bike Ride: American Sky Blue

Today provided a fantastic morning for getting away from screens and the indoors.

Screenshot of weather app showing 77 degrees and sunny
Perfect day for bicycling

Bicycling has been a challenge around here lately because we had a major flooding event a couple of weeks ago that decimated many area trails. However, our hardworking Parks and Rec employees have performed amazing feats of restoration on some sections already. Not all, though.

Two orange traffic cones on a deeply rutted gravel trail
I didn’t go that way

I was able to make it to the area lake that is my most common destination with few problems. But I decided to mix things up a little and sit on the opposite shore from the one where I usually hang out, get a little change of perspective. I found a bench in the shade where I enjoyed the breeze and the smooth expanse of American Sky Blue above me.

Many birds also seemed to be having a good time, judging by the amount of chatter.

Screenshot from Merlin app, identifying Red-winged blackbird, American crow, Carolina wren, northern cardinal, red-eyed vireo

Advice to self: get out into the real world as often as possible.

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On Today’s Bike Ride: Unexpected Reward

Sign by trail "Welcome to Hindman Junction, where the MKT Trail meets Katy Trail State Park."

This morning, the spouse and I rode our bicycles out to where the MKT Trail and Katy Trail meet, otherwise known as Hindman Junction, after a former mayor who played a large role in getting the trails system developed.

I had been considering turning around at an earlier point, but the bench I had in mind was occupied. We did stop there for a couple of minutes because one of the two occupants was a coworker of mine. So we chatted briefly and pressed on.

And as an unexpected reward for our efforts, nature treated us to mulberries. Some were even ripe enough to eat.

Those and the cereal bar I packed along fueled me up for the return journey. Don’t worry. We left plenty of berries for other travelers.

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On Today’s Bike Ride: the Wind Connects Us

The older I get, the more I could turn this blog into an obituary column. Yesterday, I drove a four-hour round trip for the funeral of my sister, who passed away unexpectedly a couple of weeks ago.

She was 12 and 1/2 years older and often took care of me. When I was sad, she would put her arms around me and sing the song “Big Girls Don’t Cry.” Or at least parts of it. Too bad she’s not here to sing it now, because I’m very sad.

But going outside and moving always helps. So I got on my bicycle this morning and took one of my favorite trail rides to a small, local lake.

Lake under moderately cloudy sky.

It was a bit windy for bicycling. But instead of seeing it as an adversary, I celebrated the wind as a connecting force. The same wind rippling the water, bending the grass blades, making tree leaves dance, a co-navigator for the birds, blowing across everyone outdoors and rattling the windows of all the folks indoors. Nothing like wind to remind us how each piece is a part of the whole.

These ruminations remind me of a poem about loss that rings true for me.

To One Dead
by Max Bodenheim

I walked upon a hill
And the wind, made solemnly drunk with your presence,
Reeled against me.
I stooped to question a flower,
And you floated between my fingers and the petals,
Tying them together.
I severed a leaf from its tree
And a water-drop in the green flagon
Cupped a hunted bit of your smile.
All things about me were steeped in your remembrance
And shivering as they tried to tell me of it.

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Mother’s Day Bike Ride and a Robin

I have heard from both of my kids on Mother’s Day, one from halfway across the country and the other from the next room. I’ve also exchanged greetings with other mothers I know because we lift each other up. I’m so fortunate to have that.

The spouse and I took a bike ride this morning. Mother Nature supplied amazing weather plus a field full of buttercups.

On a separate Mother’s Day note, we are celebrating the hatching of three baby robins in a nest under our carport. It sits atop an electrical box attached to our storage shed. She was not in the nest when I snapped this photo, but we have named the mother robin “Barb.” Hubs and I both apologize every time we make a noise that alarms her.

Robin's nest built on top of electrical box attached to red corrugated sheet metal.
Robin’s nest under our carport

“Sorry, Barb,” we say several times a day. Judging by the amount of scolding we receive, I don’t think she understands that we are cheering on her little family.

I hope the day has been meaningful for you, dear readers.

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On Today’s Walk: Two New Trails

Gravel walking trail next to a lake, with part of a metal barrier (to block cars) in the foreground.
Starting the first walk

After a solid week of gray skies and rain, the sun came out today. My son agreed to explore a new-to-us walking trail in the area. The Philips Lake Trail seems fairly new, and looks as if it was put in as an amenity to nearby businesses and apartment complexes. You don’t feel like you’re out in the country, but it is a nicely built walking path. A map told me it’s 1.4 miles around the lake.

The first 0.4 or so, we fought through swarms of gnats. But we finally found the point where the wind was blowing them away from us, and the rest of the walk was pleasant enough.

We even saw a spot where the city (I assume) recycled some Christmas trees to help promote fish habitat (I assume.)

Lake with old Christmas trees partially submerged

After we finished with this path, we decided to explore another area literally right across the road. Because we are both gifted with stamina and a sense of adventure, at least in moderate amounts.

Gans Creek Recreation Area has a cross country route laid out, with facilities for events. But nothing was scheduled today. It was a little soggy in places, so we didn’t traverse every bit of it. But we got another mile and a half or so covered, for a pretty respectable amount of ground covered in one day.

Notice the lack of a single cloud in any of the photos. Beautiful blue skies all day. Don’t get me wrong. I’m grateful for the needed rain we received. But nothing puts me in a funk like several days with no sun.

Time spent outdoors really is a remedy for whatever ails me. Outdoors is where hope comes alive for me.

We even got to hear some peepers loudly announcing the approach of spring.

On Today’s Walk: Harmless Mischief and Whimsy

I feel like I can’t write anything these days without acknowledging what heavy times we are experiencing. But when things are most bleak is when we most need to look for little joys.

Small clay figure, yellow and beige-sh, of an unidentified creature, in the corner of two moss-covered walls.
Surprise!

This morning I began decluttering what is supposed to be our sunroom but has slowly turned into storage, and I came across several clay objects my children created in the wayback years. I used to take them to a local arts center for ceramics and weaving classes. Some of the things they made were impressive. Little bowls and vases, mostly, that I want to keep.

Then there were a couple of items none of us especially believe need to hang around anymore. Yet I couldn’t bear to just throw them out. These would be two small creatures of unidentified type, that are cute in their own way. I was pondering what to do with them when inspiration struck right along with the realization that I needed to get outside and walk before a predicted winter weather front arrived.

I love it when I come across something unexpected or a little mysterious while I’m out walking. Why not turn the tables and provide that bit of delight for someone else?

When I described my idea of harmless mischief to adult son in residence, he agreed to go along. It’s great when your kids are old enough to be your friends. We set off for a nearby park where our family has always spent a lot of time. This isn’t a playground type of place. It’s more fields and wooded areas, with a footbridge, a stream, and lots of wildflowers and native plants.

We took the two tiny figures with us and found them new, perhaps temporary, homes. Creature one is standing guard by the wooden bridge.


The other is hanging out in an interesting tree that has been growing sideways for years.

If someone takes them home, that’s fine. And if the creatures stay where they are for a while, they can watch out over a part of the earth that has been a huge part of my kids’ lives.

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The Last of the Aunts

Though she be but little she is fierce.” Shakespeare, foreshadowing my Aunt Faye.

As we age, loss becomes more common, but never familiar. It feels new every time. My parents’ generation has been dropping off, one by one, and there are few left. My mother and father each had three sisters. When I was young, I didn’t realize how fortunate I was to have so many aunts in my life, each one of them a standout in her own way.

The last few years, my mom’s youngest sister was the last aunt standing. Faye was the fun aunt, the unconditional love aunt, the one who was young and without children of her own. Though she topped out at 4’11” and probably never weighed more than 100 pounds, she contained an outsized amount of energy and spirit.

She provided her nieces and nephews with experiences we wouldn’t have had otherwise. They may sound small to others, but for kids who rarely left the neighborhood, a day with her was a day of adventure. She played a guitar that was nearly as big as she was, enchanting us with music. She took us to a park where a Christmas village and playground was set up year round. Amazing! Once, bravely, she packed as many kids as would fit in her yellow Volkswagen and surprised us with an outing to the American Royal Horse Show, where we all dreamily fell in love with a palomino named Stardust.

Beyond goings and doings, Aunt Faye provided boundless amounts of unconditional love. Nobody she met ever felt unvalued or unseen. Eventually, she met a nice woman from Wales who was in the U.S. for a while. When the two retired, they moved across the pond, where Faye became a step-mom and granny to her partner’s offspring.

Though she spent the last couple of decades thousands of miles from her family of origin, she kept up with technology and kept in touch, including getting to know many of the children she’d never met in person or had seen only when they were babies. Touching my heart, she developed a close online relationship with my oldest son, offering him support when he was going through extremely difficult times.

My aunt was deeply troubled this past year by developments in the home country she loved with every fiber of her being. She spoke out and did her best to educate the younger folk about the history and dangers of fascism. She was fierce in her dedication to protecting her people and the principles of a just world.

This past week, I received the news I would never be ready for. Aunt Faye was gone. She was 84, but had been in decent health. I’d been chatting with her online just a couple of days previously. It turns out, she passed very much like my mother did. She had what seemed like a garden variety cold, went to bed and never woke up.

I’m not sure I’m adequate to the task, but I will do my best to carry on her legacy of spreading love and fighting evil.

Rest in power, my tiny and fierce aunt.


Poem: Monument

After a loooong stretch of bitter cold here, the snow has finally melted. But February still seems like a good time to share this poem I wrote several years ago.

Child carrying large snow block toward a tower formed from snow.
Snow spire.

Monument

A monument
to winter, the jagged snow fort, walls as tall
as the eight-year-old who sculpted the blocks
lifting each into place, laboring with hard
determination, forgoing rest and
apple cider. He could be building
the pyramids. He mourns the growing warmth
of the sun. He wants his work to endure
in measure to his devotion,
kin to the Bamyan Buddhas, for ages.
He’s heavy with the tension between attachment
and impermanence. Fifteen hours, fifteen
centuries – neither is forever. But there will be
other statues, sages,
winters, snows, boys.

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Short Story in Audio: The First Line

An amazing thing has happened. The First Line has produced an audio version of my short story, “Efficiency Leads to Fulfillment.” It first appeared in their print magazine in 2020, then was later reprinted in Workers Write.

For once, words fail me. I can’t describe the feeling of hearing other people bring my work to life. I’m enormously pleased with how it turned out.

Also, if you’re considering subscribing and/or submitting work to any literary magazines, The First Line is a good choice. They do blind reads, so all stories are chosen on merit rather than personal connections. They charge no submission fee, and they pay at least a little. Much higher standards than some bigger name publications. I always look forward to a new issue.

Anyway, give my story a listen. It’s about ten minutes long.

Efficiency Leads to Fulfillment

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Poem: Epiphanies While Holding Babies

Photo by Kristina Paukshtite on Pexels.com

Mothers have been in the news recently, putting themselves on the line to protect others. I wrote this poem many years ago, and it still feels relevant.

Epiphanies while Holding Babies

1.
I once heard mothers declare
without a second thought
they would give their lives
to save their children.
Romantic hyperbole
it seemed, until,
stroking my infant’s hair
I recognized what passes as
small talk 
among mothers:
“They grow up so quickly.”
“Look at all those teeth.”
“I’d give my life to save my child.”
Chit-chat about the obvious.

2.
Cradled in a rocking chair,
newborn son in my arms,
radio reporting a war,
I have a thought new to me,
old to mothers of sons.
All of the young men killing and dying
are every one of them
someone’s baby boy.
Achieving world peace is not 
a dreamy ideal,
but immediate necessity – 
as much a part of my to-do list
as washing the diapers
and paying the bills.

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